Masks

For those of you who are suffering from depression most likely know exactly what I am referring to when I use the word "masks".  It is a term that we are very familiar with in the world of depression.  It is the fake smile we put on before we head out to work, meet a group of friends, or right before a spouse comes home.  I just realized as I was writing this I had to come back and edit it because I was trying to summarize what others might feel instead of what I feel and that is just wrong.
I cannot remember how long I have worn a "mask" but I must say most of my life beginning as a child.  I did not mind being me but I just did not seem to fit in very well. So I begin to pretend that I did.  There is nothing worse than being a homely girl, maybe not homely but definitely not the cutest girl on the block.  So the beginning of "masks" in a whole different light began outside of playing make believe......